I am Kat Says

Creative Spirit and then some

Here I am again typing away whatever my mind could put together. Honestly, even if I had written quite a number of articles already, I still find myself stumbling to find the right words to say (or in this case, type). One moment I sit down determined to finish drafting a blog post but the next hour I find my mind empty. I try to gather whatever I can to form even just a paragraph but I just can’t do it in a short period of time. Long showers somehow work but when I’ve used up all those ideas, I have nothing again. Surprisingly, the sound that plays when you successfully match tiles in 2Fuse helps me come up with something. Crazy, right? When I accept defeat, I just save the draft, log out, and challenge my creativity instead. 

I start by getting my Hexaplus and Faber-Castell pens to update my planner then I browse through the web until I forget how I arrived at the page I’m currently reading. If I read a good line from a book or a blog, I grab the personalized notebook Yara gave me and make some sort of a quote typography using only black ink. The little black Leuchtturm notebook which I try to fill with shoe sketches also comes in handy when I want to “express” myself. Aside from those, Maan gave me this little notebook that I decided to turn into a Built To Wear design sketchbook because of the paper’s quality. Just so you know, I haven’t been able to update the page the past few months thanks to school but I’m cooking up a little something to relaunch my shop so stay tuned for that ;) Going back, if you think summoning my creative spirit would eventually lead me to finishing a post, it won’t. I spend another hour playing around with the Wacom Bamboo Pen Tablet but all I get is an artwork that needs a lot of improvement, it doesn’t even deserve to be called an artwork! Frustration only fills my head when I realize that I overlooked so much detail.

After all the fuss, I finally finish a draft by listening to some Jason Mraz, Colbie  Caillat, Bruno Mars and the newest additions to my list Andy Grammer and Maggie Eckford. Hahaha! Now you must be thinking why I went through a lot when the solution was just some playlist labeled as “Feel Good, Feel Motivated, Feel the Feels” Honestly, I feel like an idiot sometimes after doing all those things every time I try to finish a blog post but then I remember why I do it over and over again. First, it’s to check whether I have to buy new fine points (and yes, I need to buy new ones). Second, it’s a way to call upon the Gods and Goddesses of Art and ask them to bless me with improved artsy hands. Lastly, it’s the other road that’s filled with a handful of tasks but would lead to the same destination. By taking that road, I saved myself from insanity over which words to choose and instead, allowed myself to improve on other things.

What I’m trying to tell everyone is that even if you feel like a tape that rewinds back to 00:00 after the credits, today wouldn’t be like yesterday or tomorrow. Yes, you might wake up feeling the same and go to bed restless as always but what happened in between? You might have perfected the circle you were trying to draw for weeks now. Maybe you finally cleared the jellies on Candy Crush (okay, I don’t play the game but [my gosh] it’s all over the place!). It even covers the big achievements like getting your first pay check! The point is that we improve ourselves bit by bit and before we know it, we’re already pros. Therefore, the next time you ask yourself why you do the same things over and over, remember that: Everyday’s a new day even if it’s the usual * insert whatever it is you do everyday here*. 

xxIamKatSays.